My point of frustration

I've decided that we need to hit the lottery. I'm at that point right now where I don't want to clean, cook, finish packing or do anything constructive. I know we should be eating way better than we are right now, but I just don't have the energy to cook meals. Solution: kick myself in the pants or win the lottery. I could hire a personal chef, maid, personal trainer.....you get the picture. Well, considering that one has to play the lottery to win it, that won't happen any time soon...so, off I go for some pants kicking...LOL!

This is how I feel right now...

Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God. John 1:12-13

Don't expect it, earn it.

*WARNING* This is me blowing off some steam...take it with a grain of salt.


One thing wrong with some of my generation and most of the next is they think they deserve respect. Well, the way I was taught, that is something that is earned. Back when my parents were young, they didn't get things handed to them, they had to earn them. (I was taught the same thing) That goes for material possessions and respect. Respect was something that you had to give in order to receive it...period. I recently had an encounter with someone who I once respected, at least a little. Needless to say, that respect is now gone due to the behavior exhibited. It's crazy to me how people think everyone should respect them because of their age, experience or even a title...sorry, doesn't work that way, at least not for me anyway. I guess the only thing that I can do here is to try to teach my children and others from their generation why respect is something only reciprocated when it is first given.

You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. Matthew 5:14,16

Overwhelmed...in a GOoD and bad way

The last few days have been, well, interesting. Between swim parties that got rained out, so much rain I thought we'd float away, night meetings at church, a surprise phone call from my Daddy, I'd say we haven't lacked for things to do...just time to blog about them. It's getting to be just about time to disassemble furniture and begin coming up with a battle plan for packing the truck. Ah, the truck...I reserved that today. Just made the reality of the move that much more real. You know, talking about the move doesn't make it real in my mind. Just something that is theoretically going to happen in the future. Reserving the truck...now that made it really seem real. It will be even more real when we pick up the truck...


As much as I'm not looking forward to leaving, God has really stirred my spirit the last few days. He has renewed in me my calling for the youth. I know this may sound crazy, but I'd rather spend time with a bunch of teenagers than with a bunch of adults. Even those teenagers that try your patience. I just love them. God has given me such a passion for them...all of them. He has given me promises about the harvest I will help to reap for His Kingdom. Last night He just overwhelmed me with the vision He has for me. I also got a little more confirmation about our next church home. I really am getting excited to once again to be used by God to speak to the next generation.


I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Phil 3:14

Growing up too fast

Ugh...now that that is off my chest...why do kids want to grow up so fast? I remember wanting so badly to be an adult, but now, I just wish I could be a kid again. The freedom of adulthood looks so nice...but, as a kid, what you don't see, is the responsibility and lack of time to do fun stuff that comes right along with it. Something I don't remember, however, is my generation being so 'sexualized' at such a young age. I don't remember my mom having to talk to me at age 10 about dressing modestly. Or talking to me about what to say to a boy when he says he wants to be my boyfriend...or kiss me. These are things that I, mother of a 10 year old, am dealing with right now...like today. As in, I just had a conversation with my Big Girl about what to say to a boy who is asking her if she is ever going to kiss him. I had to tell her that she needs a plan. She needs to know what she's going to say in these kind of situations and she needs to let me know what and when she's going to say. Did I mention she's 10!?!?! I don't think I signed up for this part of parenthood....LOL! I guess this is when I rely VERY heavily on Jesus...


Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Heb 11:1

Packing, packing, packing....

Well, we've kinda been on a packing frenzy all day today. We've packed just about everything we can absolutely live without....that's the good news and the bad news. :( My house looks so weird. Oh and every time I pass by something, I think can I live without this? Can I find a box to put it in? I had to make another run for boxes today because we ran out. Our front room is full of boxes. It's a little sad to think that almost all of the stuff in our house can fit into boxes that barely fill 200 sq. ft...not kidding.

This is pretty much our whole house.

She's not sure what to think...

Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely, who conducts his affairs with justice. Ps 112:5

Time with my Angel

My Big Girl is spending the night with a friend tonight. That always makes for some super fun with my Angel. It's not that often that I can spend time with either of them individually, so I take full advantage of it when it happens! Well, Angel being the girlie girl she is, loves to get her nails done, her toes done, dress in pretty clothes and of course get her picture taken! So tonight, we did her nails (hands and toes), put some make-up on and had a mini photo session. She's just so stinkin' beautiful...of course I'm just a little biased. Well, here are the result of some of my favorites. Most are unretouched...she's such a good subject!

She's so precious

This is the only one I edited...love it!!

It's hard to believe she's not a baby anymore, but this picture proves it!

I think this one is my favorite!

Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these. Matthew 19:14

Mountain Moving

You know, there's a saying that goes kinda like this...prayer can move mountains. You know, I think I read something about that concept in a book somewhere... :) Anyway, I have had a rough few days...worst days I've had in a while. That's not to say that my life is perfect...far from it actually...just that I try to find the good in all situations. Well, the enemy has been working overtime in the lives of me and my loved ones. My hubby is feeling attacked at work (his tender area) and I am being attacked in my relationships with people I love (my tender spot). I know the enemy would love nothing more than to drive a wedge between me and the people I love to make us all ineffective for the Kingdom. Here's the only flaw in that little plan....I am a daughter of the risen KING!! I have the mind of Christ! I am righteous in Christ! No weapon formed against me shall prosper. While sometimes it is much easier to listen to his lies, I know that the only power he has, I give him. Well, I'm taking it all back!


Nothing, and I mean nothing, can change your atmosphere and your attitude like prayer. When you are in a difficult situation or you are feeling attacked, pray. Pray that the Lord's will be done in your life and in the lives of those affected by the situation. Maybe, just maybe, God is trying to teach you a new discipline...or bring you back to an old one that needs refining...


Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me. Revelation 3:20

Thankful for hard times?

You know, it's a common misconception among new believers that once you 'get saved' life is just hunky dory. Well, I'm living proof that's as far from the truth as you can get. I mean, I got saved in March 2004, and I had an affair in December 2007. But I was 'saved'...how did that happen? Well, I began to listen to the voice of the enemy, not my Lord. This might sound really crazy to some of you, but I am grateful for that time in my life. Not because I enjoyed breaking my husband's heart and nearly ripping my family apart, but because I became stronger in my Faith for it. Through all of that, I learned how to hear the Voice of the Lord and how to silence the voice of the evil one.


Let me tell you, that experience and growth has come in handy the last few days. I've had a rough time and I know that without the Lord allowing me to go through past struggles, I would not have the tools and the strength to get through my struggles today. Sometimes it's not so easy to silence the voice of the enemy, but I am holding on to the victory I have in Christ. Thank you Jesus!


I have chosen the way of truth; I have set my heart on your laws. Ps 119:30

A little bit of this and a little bit of that

I have sat in front of this computer 3 times since my last post trying to write something....anything. And I've got nothing. Not that there isn't anything going on...quite the opposite actually. There are so many things going on right now I can't decide which one I should write about. Hmmm, let's see...


1. My friends are amazing...no really they are. I love having a great group of girlfriends who get me. (and still love me) I mean everyone has their quirks. Take me for example. According to my great friends, I say all those things that everyone is thinking. You know, I'm pretty sure I'm totally ok with that. I just think that it's great that all of us can look past our flaws, quirks and "just me's" and still get along like sisters. I know God has put all these women in my life for a purpose. And I love you all!!


2. My Big Girl isn't such a little girl any more. I know I call her my big girl, but she's still young...just my oldest. Well, there was a moment, a few weeks ago, where I looked at my Big Girl and realized that she doesn't look like a kid any more. Every day, she's looking more and more like a teenager. She passed a milestone recently that I had hoped was not coming for at least another year. :( But I must say that I'm looking forward to teenage-dom. I know that sounds totally crazy, but hear me out. She and I don't connect as easily as I do with my Angel. I think it will be very helpful to our relationship to be able to go out and do 'girl' stuff together...just the two of us. So, I can look past all of the hormones, attitudes and other teenager-ness that comes with the territory just to be closer to my not-so-little girl.


3. The packing is coming along pretty well. Still haven't gotten back into that kitchen...ugh! It's difficult to pack and live in a house...but we will weather this storm too!


I know there's more, but it's not really blog worthy. So for all of you (all 8 of you) that's the update on my crazier than usual life. Many blessing and lots of love to you all!!


I will praise you with an upright heart as I learn your righteous laws. Ps 119:7

A much deserved break...

I busted my tail today getting the kitchen sorted and mostly packed and even cleaned a little. You know, you never realize how dirty things get until you move. Take for example the top of the refrigerator. Now I'm sure there are some people out there who clean it like once a month or whatever, but I am not one of them. So, living in this house for almost 3 years, you can imagine how disgusting the top was. EW! Scrubbed the top and the inside. I packed several boxes of dishes. Then I got a call for one of the pieces of furniture I have posted. So I had to stop the work in the kitchen in order to go clean the armoire in the bedroom. Lemme tell ya, that was DIRTY! Electronics make so much dust! (It doesn't help that I have so many other things that I spend my 'dusting' time on...LOL!) Well, armoire cleaned and sold, kitchen half packed...I headed to the grocery store to get some things we had to have today. Did that and stopped at Sonic for dinner. The rest of my evening will consist of sitting right here in this recliner doing one of three things (or some combination of the three)...1) playing around on the computer 2) watching a movie or 3) reading a book. Somewhere in there I might just send my hubby to DQ again...twice in one week, oh the insanity! (but I deserve it!)


Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you. James 1:21